no

hey

2007-04-15T20:52:33Z

i'm tired.

love

2007-03-12T03:05:37Z

hm

2007-01-12T04:52:15Z

4D ultrasound next friday! ..

he's not feeling anything.

2007-01-05T22:53:39Z

i'm 32 weeks now.
baby is coming soon. real soon.
hmm
..

..

2006-12-13T04:24:53Z

well. it's almost time to see baby. 15 more days.
i need to find out the sex and buy cute clothes, fast.
i'm big.
people are horrible.
i decorated our christmas tree last night and i wish baby was here to see it.
i'd give anything for a tuna sandwich. i miss having friends.
i need to go to disneyland before christmas is over.
my car,it'll die soon.

pushininthepin @ 2006-05-08T16:50:00

2006-05-08T23:50:50Z

i miss my baby.

you don't know the half of it

2006-05-05T16:28:07Z

i wanna cut my hair real short,chop-chop short..but i wont.
yesterday was like,the 3rd d-day we've had this week and i think that's pretty cool.
every time i hear the word "disappoint(ed/ment)" i spell it out in my head.
i need a big money scheme,
gotta buy weed.uh kush saves lives,thats what they say.i dont buy it.
i need new books.i'm tired.
everything will be better soon?
something is wrong.
everything will fall apart, soon.

why?

2006-03-31T19:44:57Z

i bought weed yesterday for the 2nd time in my life,but this time the other person involved actually let ME hang on to it.i keep going to my backpack to smell it and make sure it's safe.ahahha.my dad always has the XM satellite channels on and sometimes they play good stuff.i'm tired of living.the volvo will never be fixed.real soon i'm gonna have to set aside about 5 or 6 hours for laying in bed.i need to cry for everything bad thats ever happened,it's been awhile.i wish i could be around adam all the time.my head hurts.i read the x girl's livejournal entries and i dont know how i feel about them.haha. the boy is doing yardwork and i am bored.

i hate myself and i want to die.

2006-03-06T02:55:32Z

mhm.today i ate two chocolate covered strawberries and then i was called a linebacker.i'm chubby,i'll die soon.i love my boyfriend.

i hate everything.

2006-02-01T23:39:52Z

it's true.

pushininthepin @ 2006-01-29T17:48:00

2006-01-30T01:49:28Z

i have a boyfriend, he is great.

yes.

2005-04-01T04:08:56Z

japanese food tastes better coming up.
the thrill of living is gone.
my best friend is moving soon.
mars volta in san diego next month (!).
ex-righthand man might be back,but probably not.
painting canvases in my backyard alone is cool.

pushininthepin @ 2005-03-17T19:14:00

2005-03-18T03:19:51Z

i talked to ari for the first time in over a month today.
i realized that i need to stop being a fucking baby sometimes.i miss her a lot. blah blah jfsjvf.haha
karay moved out. having friends was overrated anyway. hah. so uh. if you're reading this and i like you, you should call me up and we'll hang out. because chances are i'm sitting in my room alone with nothing to think about.

pushininthepin @ 2004-12-23T22:25:00

2004-12-24T06:31:45Z

i ruin things.
like lives.
i've lapsed into the ugly all over again.i'm gonna erase people from my life so they wont get hurt,or think less of me.i don't know what i'm talking about.
someone should love me.

monster

2004-10-06T05:10:22Z

i stole gold motherfucking glitter from the MAC counter at macy*s today.
it's fucken over.

if you hate your friends,you're not alone.

2004-09-14T21:58:45Z

i'm going to new york saturday.coming back on wednesday.
i guess i'm excited.
last nite me and ari picked up erny and went to santa monica.
he shared his cheesecake with me and i probably love him.
ari's hands smelled like pee because she went through a homeless person's belongings.afterward,we went to john's.
i sleep better on john's bed than on any other bed.
i wish i knew how to take advice.
no one reads this.

i'm gonna need a nap.

2004-04-26T23:28:18Z

random trips to mexico are fun.
work makes me sleepy.
it's cute when people decide to stop coming around.

you've become what you thought was dumb.

2004-04-11T00:57:07Z

jenn's party is tonight.......................
HE will be there.and i'm gonna drink myself retarded
and sit somewhere and listen to built to spill.

pushininthepin @ 2004-04-09T22:26:00

2004-04-10T05:40:54Z

ari has been sleeping over a lot lately.it's nice
having her around.
everything else is ugly.
i got a call from someone i missed the other nite,i wish
that happened more often.
we went to an 80's club last nite and i met a boy.
we got alcohol wristbands cause we know one of the security guys.i didn't drink as much as i should have.
we left and parked in some parking lot and ate nachos.then i got locked
out of my house and ari and i sat on a curb and it was cute.

CHANGE YOUR NAME TO LUCY.

2004-04-03T02:52:15Z

i took an oxycontin yesterday.that was some crazy shit.
it gets no better than heroin in a pill.
in other news: boys
are all a bunch of stupid mother fuckers.and i'm getting
what i asked for.

remember how you used to call me baby

2004-03-24T05:02:51Z

being woken up early three days in a row is cute.
today we went to some park and laid on itchy
grass for like three hours talking about people we miss and hip hop.i've decided that my misery is
self-inflicted and sometimes i wish
i weren't so sketchy.just kidding.

we're all gonna buuurrnn in hell.

2004-02-23T01:39:42Z

so this was one of the best weekends i've ever had.
the beach is my new favorite place to be.
i love seagulls.